My
sweet Arthur came home today, and has been laid to rest in a special
urn next to his beloved Grandma Kittling and his brother Snickers. I
will be custom building a base for the urn, which will be wrapped in
the bright green fabric of his cherished cat bed where he spent so much
of his time.
This
first week without Arthur has been expectedly difficult. Every time I
walk past a room, I instinctively peer in to see where Arthur is. Every
time I walk into a dark room, I instinctively slow down so that I don't
bump into him. But a fraction of a second later, I remember that he's
gone.
It
seems like just yesterday, I was cherishing my time with Snickers and
Arthur knowing there would be a future day when both their remains
would be in
urns next to Kittling. It's hard to believe how quickly that time has
come. In the years ahead, Viola will join them in heaven, and someday
it will be my turn. I look forward to that joyful reunion.
♥ Arthur Dudley
Solomon Brusky (2012-2025) ♥ June 9, 2025
It
is with deep sadness that I announce the passing of my best friend and
loyal companion, Arthur. He has gone home to reunite with his beloved
brother, Snickers, and his cherished grandma and guardian angel,
Kittling.
I
took Arthur to the ER yesterday since none of the fluid treatments or
medications he received eased his symptoms. They took an x-ray and
found
a very large mass in his abdomen. Apparently this mass was pushing on
his organs and causing his problems. Surgery was not an option due to
the complexity of the mass and Arthur's medical condition. He passed
away very peacefully in my arms.
Arthur
was a diabetic cat who required insulin every 12 hours. He and I were a
diabetes management team. He would eat on cue, and then I would follow
up by freezing a spot on his skin to numb it and delivering an
injection, which he always took like a trouper. We stayed
this course for almost four years. I had to turn down a lot of band
jobs in order to maintain his insulin schedule. Some people
thought I was nuts for doing that for a cat, but I had absolutely no
reservations. He
was family.
When
we think about people loving their pets, we usually conjure images of
playtime, toys, and treats, but there's another side to that love we
don't always see. When I was saying goodbye to Snickers in 2021, I
promised him that I would take good care of his brother. That promise
helped me stick to that commitment. The result is the pile of insulin
containers you see below. My commitment to Arthur as his caregiver was
topped
only by his commitment to me as a loyal companion. Managing his health
wasn't an easy task, but it's a task I wouldn't have traded for the
world.
Arthur
came into my life on December 20, 2012. He and Snickers quickly became
lifelong best friends. Snickers passed away in December 2021, but
Arthur continued to fill my home with warmth and love for another
3½ years. Arthur had an attention-getting meow, and he used it
to
let me know he was ready for some TLC. I'd often be sitting in my
computer chair when he'd meow, and would reach down to scoop him up.
Then I would flip him on his back, practically holding him upside down,
and rub his tummy. He'd purr like a motor boat while flicking his tail
and kneading imaginary dough in the air.
With Arthur now gone, my home feels cold and empty. That will take
getting used to. When Snickers died, I still had Arthur, so my home
didn't change much. But now I am dismantling the 6-foot cat tree,
removing the food and water dispensers, and boxing up 32 years' worth
of accumulated cat toys.
I'm
not going to throw these items away, however, I have no plans on
getting a future cat. Snickers, Arthur, and Viola were stray kittens
divinely
gifted to me by Kittling. I didn't go looking for them. Kittling
brought them into my life by guiding them to the right place at the
right time. If any of my cats in heaven divinely gift me a kitten, of
course I will take it into my home without hesitation. But I'm not
going to go out and look for a cat because their healthcare can cost
thousands of dollars a year. (I will never again own a cat without
getting pet health insurance.)
I'm
having Arthur cremated so that his ashes can reside in the same
place of honor in my home shared by the ashes of Kittling and Snickers.
I've ordered a special urn and will be building a wooden base for it
that I will cover in the fabric of the plush cat bed that he cherished.
Of all the adjectives to describe Arthur, the most fitting is sweet. He was as gentle and
friendly as any cat could be, even under stressful conditions. Everyone
who gave him medical treatment loved him for that. He never did
anything naughty so he never got yelled at. He was the epitome of a
good boy. He was my
"Pumpkin Pie."
Arthur's very first photo: Dec. 20, 2012. Approximately 9 months old.
December 29, 2012.
Celebrating his first birthday in 2013.
2014, being a pillow for Snickers. They were the best of friends.
Arthur's final photo, 8:10pm, June 8, 2025.
Arthur in
Hospital May 28, 2025
I
woke up this morning to hearing Arthur crying underneath the couch.
He's never been underneath the couch before, so I immediately knew
something was very wrong. I pulled him out and noticed that he couldn't
walk. I rushed him to the ER where they determined that he was
hypoglycemic. Instead of his blood sugar being too high which requires
insulin injections to regulate, it was too low.
He
is currently on an IV to stabilize his glucose levels, and they are
also warming up his body temperature.
I
take Arthur to the vet several times a year where he gets fructosamine
tests to determine what his insulin needs are. They've gone up over the
past three years, but earlier this year they've started coming down.
Apparently since his last fructosamine test less than two months ago,
and more specifically within the last day, his insulin needs have
drastically dropped, which has never happened before.
What
we do not yet know is whether that means his diabetes is heading toward
remission, or some yet-undiagnosed condition is abnormally diminishing
his appetite and reducing his glucose levels. Since I've been doing a
good job with his insulin regimen and diet since he was diagnosed in
2021, and since a comprehensive blood, urine, and stool test a couple
months ago didn't reveal anything concerning, I'd like to think his
diabetes is heading toward remission, but it's too soon to tell.
I
don't know what kind of shape Arthur is in right now, but he's
receiving prompt urgent care at the hospital. They'll call me in the
next hour or so to let me know how he's doing.
UPDATE:
JUNE 4
The
staff at the ER saved Arthur's life by restoring his blood sugar level
to a healthy range, but since being back from the ER, Arthur never
regained his appetite, and has remained lethargic and despondent.
Earlier today, I took Arthur to see his regular doctor. He ran another
battery of tests and found issues with Arthur's pancreas as well as a
urinary tract infection. Arthur is going to be in the hospital
overnight with an IV for treatment of pancreatitis and a UTI.
Receiving
fluids was enough to spark Arthur to start eating, so even though we
don't yet know what is causing the issues with his pancreas, at least
he's on the path to feeling better.
The
possibility that he is going into diabetic remission is still on the
table, although it's too soon to tell. His future is uncertain. He
could bounce out of this relatively healthy, or maybe he is stricken by
cancer. Only time will tell, and right now we're taking things one day
at a time.
UPDATE: JUNE 8
I thought Arthur was on the path to feeling better, but that doesn't
seem to be the case. Within a day of coming out of hospitilization, he
became as despondent and uninterested in eating as when I took him in.
Tomorrow I'm going to decide whether or not to take him back to the ER.
World's First AI
Accordion April 1, 2025
Petanaldi
Accordion Manufacturing Company, based in Silicon Valley, in
partnership with Google, has integrated artificial intelligence into
their digital accordions. The AI integration is designed to assist
accordion players in assessing their audience and choosing
appropriate music to play. Each accordion is fitted with advanced
optics and sensors to continually monitor audience response and offer
music suggestions to the accordionist.
JBL's New
Rear-Facing PA Speakers April 1, 2025
It's
no secret that volume is an issue for polka bands playing
at assisted living facilities, senior living communities,
rehabilitation centers, veterans administration homes, and memory care
facilities. JBL has chosen to address this problem by designing a new
series of loudspeakers which are designed to sit backward on speaker
stands.
"What
makes the Polka Power series so revolutionary is that it effortlessly
solves two problems at the same time — it reduces volume out front, and
it provides sound monitoring for the band," explained Wayne Oerth,
JBL Director of Technology.
Polka
Power active speakers start at $799/pair MSRP. For polka bands still
lugging around their heavy, bulky Crown amplifiers from the 1980s,
Polka Power speakers are also available in a passive design featuring
1/4" speaker inputs and pre-dented grilles.
U.S. Mint's
Yankovic Quarters Go Missing April 1, 2025
The
United States Department of the Treasury announced on Tuesday that the
Mint is terminating its Yankovic Quarter Program after the first batch
of coins went missing.
"We
had just finishing minting 1.4 million quarters, which were bagged and
readied for distribution the next day," said Treasury Assistant
Secretary Nick Sollover Planchett, "We didn't have room to store them
at the Treasury, so some friends of ours, who are polka music fans,
graciously offered to have the bags stay overnight at their house. The
following morning, all of the coins were gone."
According
to the police report, also missing from the house were a set of bath
towels
and the homeowners' entire collection of Johnny Pecon records.
New Valveless Tuba for Non-Discerning Polka Musicians April 1, 2025
At the Band
Instrument Dealers Convention in Las Vegas last week, Yamaha revealed
their latest innovation targeted toward the polka industry — the
valveless tuba. Dan Schugelacher, tuba player with Buddy King
& the Happytime Polka Band from Rayburg, Minnesota, demonstrated
the tuba during the week-long convention.
"It sounds
just like any other tuba," explained Schugelacher, "but it operates
more like a bugle. Since most polka tuba players play every song in B-flat anyway, Yamaha simplified the
tuba-playing experience by eliminating those pesky valves. I mean
seriously, has anyone actually figured what those things do?"
To simplify
the tuba playing process even further, Yamaha pretunes their valveless
tubas at their factory for either piano accordion (A-441) or concertina
(A-whatever) and welds the tuning slides in place.
Welcome Back to Tom's
Online Psychotherapy Lounge March 17, 2025
I
thought for sure I'd be putting the psychology-related blog entries to
rest for a while, but a serious situation recently transpired that
commanded my attention and intervention.
You
may remember that several years ago, an album that I was working on
took a sudden change of course when the friend I had originally hired
to partner with me had flipped out and bailed halfway through
production. As she bailed, she ended our friendship in a sudden,
scathing rage that came clear out of left field. I knew she was having
issues with low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety, so, knowing her
as well as I did, I armchair-diagnosed her outburst of volatile
behavior as being linked to a mix of personality disorders and just let
it go.
Fast
forward to about two weeks ago. On a whim, I thought I'd check up on
her to see how she was getting along, and I found all of her social
media pages deleted. Since I remembered her as such an avid user of
social media, my heart sank as I
thought she might be dead. Thankfully, I didn't find an obituary.
Instead,
a little sleuthing turned up a misspelled version of her name which
directed me to a YouTube channel where two people were complaining
about her bizarre behavior — a young singer and a music producer. Both
of them were sharing stories very similar to mine where they were once
her friends, but then she flipped 180 degrees and raged against them,
just like
she did with me. What alarmed me most, however, is that the young
singer was trauma-bonded.
(Although
my friend exhibited symptoms spanning the entire Cluster B family of
personality disorders which includes narcissism, I'll simply refer to
her as
the "narcissist" going forward as my article centers on the
narcissistic subset of behaviors.)
A
trauma bond is kind of a co-dependent relationship where the
emotionally vulnerable victim needs the attention of the narcissist,
and the narcissist exploits that vulnerability to feed their own ego
with power and control.
The
music producer was doing a great job of protecting the young singer,
but I felt I could help just by stepping in to say, "Hey guys, you
don't know me, but I'm another music producer who got bamboozled by the
same narcissist just like you did. You're not alone." So that's what I
did, and in the
process, I made a couple of wonderful, new friends.
Together,
the three of us worked to un-bond the victim from the narcissist. What
makes
trauma bonds so hard to break is that narcissists are so desperate to
keep their claws dug into their victims, they become experts at
manipulating their victim's emotions. The narcissist will say sweet
things to win the victim back and turn them against their friends.
Sometimes the narcissist will outright threaten their victim to make
them too scared to leave.
Hardly
a day later, the narcissist said all the right things, played on the
victim's emotions, and won her over, which is a standard narcissistic
behavior associated with "hoovering." Sadly, it wasn't
unexpected due to how strong some trauma bonds can be and how
manipulative narcissists can be. The only thing the producer and I
could have done is what we already did, which was plant the seeds of
knowledge. All we can do now is step back and hope they take root.
With
100% certainty, at some point down the road the narcissist will
continue the cycle of turning on her victim and inflicting mental abuse
just like she's done before, except this time, the victim will at least
have a better understanding of why she abuses her.
A Quick Rundown on the Disorder and the
Trauma Bond
Think
of a healthy person's identity (sense of self) like a house. If the
person is brought up in a nurturing environment, their house will be
built strong to withstand the elements. Think of rain, hail, and snow
like adversity such as criticism. It all just bounces off. With this
protection automatically set in place during childhood, they don't
grow up having to focus on protecting themselves. This allows them to
live normally and go out into the world to meet new people, make
lifelong friends, fall in love, get married, and do all the things
healthy people do.
A narcissist's house, however, never gets built. Due to being raised in
a dysfunctional household or to physiological abnormalities, their
sense of self gets stunted very early in development, sending them into
the world exposed, vulnerable, and insecure. A person cannot function
in the world without an identity, so the narcissist does something
fascinating during early childhood: they create a false identity, and
learn to engage with the world through that identity. They
crudely hack together their own version of a house, and that becomes
their security blanket in the face of adversity.
Since the narcissist has no foundation or framework to build on, they
can't build an actual house, but they can hack together a facade that
looks like a house, and that's all they need. Then they stand outside
their fake house putting up decorations, watering the flowers, and
doing whatever they can to make people think their house is better than
everyone else's. Essentially, they play make-believe. "Look at me! I'm
secure, awesome, and full of love. I'm the best and most loyal friend
anyone could ever ask for!"
But, unbeknownst to both the narcissist and the victims they attract,
it's all a trap.
The narcissist needs people to think they are happy and secure because
it generates external validation, and external validation is what
strengthens their fake house. But there's a problem. The fake house is
so shoddily constructed that a single rain drop or snowflake (eg. a
criticism or perception of being judged) can send
it tumbling to the ground, leaving the narcissist exposed without any
protection.
As
a person gets
closer to a narissist, the narcissist becomes increasingly unsettled
because the person can discover how fake, flawed, and weak their
house is. Suddenly the person's validation of the narcissist loses its
potency, and the narcissist responds by holding the person in
increasing contempt,
labeling them an enemy, and devaluing their worth. In
addition, the person may say something that inadvertently knocks the
narcissist's facade down. Either way, the person is either devalued and
instantly discarded, or devalued and made a victim of the narcissist's
cycles of abusive behavior.
In the situation I described earlier, the narcissist's happy facade
lured a victim who was a young, impressionable, vulnerable girl who
apparently didn't have a lot of friends. The girl looked up to the
narcissist and
made her a necessary part of her life. That is exactly the kind of
validation a narcissist craves — feeling needed, exalted, and
important. This dynamic created the perfect storm
for a trauma bond.
In the idealization phase of their online friendship, they validated
each other immensely. They became BFFs. They depended on each other to
lift each other up. But as is standard for relationships with
narcissists, as the victim got closer and the relationship matured, the
narcissist felt less validated and started to devalue the victim. The
devaluation escalated to where the narcissist started becoming
unnecessarily hostile (mentally abusive) toward the victim.
When a narcissist does this, the victim may realize the
narcissist is toxic and step out of their life. This is one reason why
narcissists have very few friends. But this young victim was already
too emotionally attached to the narcissist. She was strong enough to
give the narcissist a
piece of her mind, but not strong enough to leave the narcissist
behind and escape the abuse. She didn't have many friends to turn to,
so her
emotional dependence on the narcissist won out.
Narcissists' egos do not benefit from love, but from external
validation and
whatever gives them a sense of power and control. Having a victim who
sees them as a mentor, emotionally depends on them, and isn't strong
enough to leave them is like
striking gold. A narcissist will not easily let go of supply
this valuable, because without supply, a narcissist has nothing to hold
up their facade. No identity. No security.
The narcissist keeps their claws in their victims by a process called
hoovering. This is a cycle of devaluation and love bombing which allows
the narcissist to repeatedly mentally abuse their victim. After they
abuse their victim, they prey on their victim's emotions in order to
suck them back into their life (like a Hoover vacuum cleaner, which is
how the term originated) and continue the cycle.
Narcissists are programmed to do this to their victims. It is a cycle
that will infinitely repeat until the victim, once and for all, says
enough is enough and leaves for good. Every victim is different. The
strongest, most independent victims
will leave right away. The more dependent victims may leave after
several years. But highly-dependent victims may not be strong enough to
leave at all, and will live out
their lives as victims of the narcissist's abuse.
What makes this particular case so frightening and dangerous is how
young and vulnerable this narcissist's victim is, and that she
admittedly suffers from mental disabilities. She is so enamored
by the narcissist that she has no clue that she's a pawn in the
narcissist's hoovering behavior. All she knows is that she loves the
narcissist so much that nothing — not even the narcissist's mental
abuse — will
keep her away. Most narcissists would be intelligent enough to know
they should back off,
but this
narcissist is so flawed and debilitated by her disorder that she is
willing to keep
allowing a young,
vulnerable, impressionable girl with mental
disabilities back into her cycle of abuse. So who will be
her next victim? A teenager with Down syndrome? A baby holding candy?
For this reason, the producer and I stepped in to help this victim when
it seemed like
she was on the cusp of breaking the trauma bond and finally freeing
herself from the narcissist's grip. Unfortunately, the trauma bond was
just too
strong. The victim is patently obsessed with the narcissist. In
the months ahead, if the narcissist and victim maintain their
relationship, the victim will endure more
love-bombing and re-devaluation by the narcissist. It is an inevitable
cycle in
which the trauma bond has trapped her.
There
is nothing more the other
music producer and I can do to help her because she is an adult and
free to make her own decisions. Our hope is that the next time the
narcissist says anything abusive, the victim will take a closer look at
our words and how
diligently and kindly we tried to help her. Hopefully she'll
connect the dots,
find the strength to leave the narcissist in her dust, and go on to
establish and experience normal connections with normal friends.
No-Contact
When
it seemed the victim was on the cusp of leaving the narcissist, my
advice to her was to go "no-contact". What that means is simply what it
says — summarily and permanently ending all communication with the
narcissist. Once a narcissist rages and reveals their colors, there is
no hope of reasoning with them because narcissists are incapable of
owning the shame of their behavior. Narcissists are not emotionally
developed enough to accept any perspective other than their own because
only their own perspective shields their ego from harm.
This fundamental aspect of the disorder makes it pointless to debate
anything a narcissist says. The narrative they write in their head will
always
make them right regardless of the truth. Their need to defend their
narrative will lead them to rely on made-up facts and absurd excuses.
When you argue with a narcissist, the argument will go around in
circles ad infinitum because the narcissist is not mentally equipped to
handle the shame of being wrong. Most of you, at one point or another,
have argued with a narcissist and
have experienced this.
People who are experienced at
identifying the symptoms of personality disorders know that when a
narcissist rages at you or when a borderline splits on you, the
healthiest and most effective strategy is not to argue, but to
step away and establish appropriate boundaries. The
ultimate boundary is summarily removing yourself from their life and
going no-contact. Going no-contact means ignoring and deleting all
forms of communication. It means deleting their written messages
without reading
them, deleting their audio messages without hearing them, and never,
ever reaching out to them for any reason.
But what if the narcissist may be reaching out to apologize? Nope, it's
a sham. A
narcissist does not possess the empathy required to offer a sincere,
authentic apology for having hurt another person because they're not
emotionally equipped to withstand the shame of being 100% responsible
for it. Quite often, they'll instead deflect the blame by placing it on
circumstances beyond their control, such as another person or on
another mental illness diagnosis. When narcissists don't deflect blame
and seem to be offering a sincere apology, it's a strategic move
designed to keep their victim on a string. After some time has passed,
the narcissist will repeat the same hurtful behavior for which they
apologized.
This
is
the cycle called hoovering. Hoovering a victim generally involves
mentally abusing them and making them feel subordinate, then playing on
their emotions to win them back by apologizing or love bombing. Days or
weeks later the narcissist will start mentally abusing the victim
again, and the cycle keeps
repeating.
It's very difficult for a trauma-bonded victim of a narcissist to go
no-contact because they want so badly to believe the narcissist is
actually a good, loving person whose apologies are sincere.
Trauma-bonded victims commonly talk themselves into believing they
deserved the abuse, and may even apologize to the narcissist for making
them so angry. What they
don't know, and refuse to accept, is that the narcissist is an
abusive person who's trapped them in a hoovering cycle.
A
narcissist is
a wolf in sheep's clothing, but trauma-bonded victims hold onto the
belief
that it's the other way around — that the sheep who once idealized them
exists somewhere underneath the wolf, and if they can just love the
wolf enough, they'll get their sheep back. But a narcissist's true self
is not defined by how they behave when they're high on validation and
in full sheep costume, but how they behave when the sheep costume is
off. That's when the abusive, spiteful,
self-centered, apathetic, intolerant, and judgmental narcissist reveals
their true colors, and no amount of love on the face of the earth can
heal that. The sheep costume will slip on and off, but the wolf will
never, ever go away.
What trauma-bonded victims need more than anything is support. They
need it in the form of information about personality disorders and
friends to lean on. The problem
is that the information and the friends both say, "Leave the
narcissist.
We've got your back." and the narcissist says, "They're wrong. I'm the
only one that has your back." and then the trauma-bonded victim gets
stuck in a emotional tug-of-war. Which way the victim goes depends
entirely on how strong the trauma bond is, and how willing, ready, and
equipped they are to break free from it and go no-contact.
For a spouse or significant other, leaving a narcissist is very
difficult. It takes a lot of strength because it essentially means
leaving an old life behind and starting a new one. It's a frightful
prospect, so it can take years or even decades for someone to summon
the strength to break free from the abuse of a narcissistic spouse. And
after they break free, they should seek therapy or counseling to help
them make sense of how and why they got trapped.
I
believe there are literally more survivors of narcissistic abuse in
therapy than actual narcissists because only the victim can feel the
pain of lost love. The narcissist can only feel the pain of lost
supply. If you or someone you love has been victimized by a narcissist,
here is a link to help you find out where support is available: VeryWellMind.com
Why
Narcissists Refuse the Help They Need
A few comments I've
received have prompted me to add a final section on why it is difficult
for narcissists to seek the help they need.
Our brain is like a
camera lens. Through that lens is how we perceive ourselves and the
world around us. All during our childhood, if we are programmed with
the tools we need (self-love/esteem) to develop a normal lens, we'll
grow up to see ourselves and the world around us in a healthy way. This
normal lens is what allows us to get along with others, make lifelong
friendships, develop loving bonds with people, get married and have
kids, and handle adversity. It's a security that we take for granted
because it's always been there.
But some people raised in broken homes or with genetic defects grow up
plagued by low self-esteem and insecurity, so their camera lens is
distorted. A person with a distorted lens does not know their lens is
distorted because it's been that way their whole life. They've never
seen the world through any other kind of lens. It's the only lens
they've ever known.
Narcissists know they're insecure, and they know how problematic their
relationships with people are, but since their lens is distorted by the
disorder, they can't understand and own the root of those problems.
Their low self-esteem and insecurity makes them self-centered,
judgmental, and abusive, but their disorder distorts their lens in
order to shield them from the shame of that reality. Through their
distorted lens, the narcissist sees things completely reversed. They
see themselves as the innocent victim of other people's hostility. They
insist they are authentic, tolerant, loving, caring, and empathetic,
and it's everybody else who's hostile, judgmental,
and self-centered.
Narcissists may seek help
for their depression, but the help they need and the help they want are
two different things. What a narcissist wants is to feel vindicated and
validated, but what they need is to understand that the root
of their problems lies in the distortion of their lens. Narcissists
can't do that because their distorted lens is what's been protecting
them
their whole life.
This causes narcissists
to skip out of therapy and try to self-heal their way through their
problems, but self-healing can't
work because everything they do is done through their distorted lens.
No matter how many self-improvement strategies they practice, their
life
never changes because their lens never un-distorts.
The difference between a
narcissist and a reformed narcissist is that a narcissist thinks their
lens is fine, whereas a reformed narcissist knows it wasn't. A
narcissist insists they are an innocent victim of other people's
hostile behavior, and that they are, and will always be, justified in
how they choose to behave toward those people. But a reformed
narcissist knows that the pain of their insecurity caused them to
overreact and victimize innocent people.
Narcissists are not
stupid; they're just emotionally
disabled. Narcissists are mentally capable of self-reflection, but
their disorder prohibits it to a large extent due to the emotional pain
it causes. If a narcissist can look
back on their life and say, "I do
see a pattern that never changes. Maybe I really am seeing things in a
wrong way. Maybe I am the problem," then there's hope for them. Only a
narcissist that can self-reflect has a chance of reforming, but most
narcissists won't ever get that far. They will forever cling to their
security blanket —
the protective, false reality of their distorted lens — and remain
narcissists for life.
Ooh! What a Deal!
Album Reaches
All-Time Best-Seller Milestone February 19, 2025
I
have to be completely honest. When I first conceptualized this album, I
knew it would do well, but I didn't think it had much of a chance of
becoming my all-time best seller. Compact disc sales peaked in 2000.
That was a long time ago! With Mollie B driving sales, however, I
predicted that it would become my 2nd best-selling album of all
time.
I
had to look back at a document I shared with a colleague in 2021 to
find how I projected this album's sales to go. I originally estimated
selling up to 400 CDs in the first year, and up to 300 additional CDs
over the next few years, totaling around 700 units sold.
Apparently
I underestimated Mollie's marketing power.
In
the first year alone, approximately 800 CD copies had sold. The album
became my 2nd
best selller within seven weeks of its release. As expected, sales then
slowed way down, but Mollie's touring schedule continued to take the
album all over the country. A little more than a year and a half later,
CD sales finally topped 1,000 units sold — a milestone I had very
little expectation of reaching.
Although
Mollie and her dedicated fans are the primary force that propelled the
album's success, there are many people to thank:
All
the musicians and vocalists who contributed their exceptional talents
to the album... the retailers (Polka Connection, Jimmy K Polkas, Cy's
Music, the Nat'l Cleveland-Style Polka Hall of Fame)... Don Hunjadi and
Polka Parade... all the radio DJs who promoted and played the album
over the air and on the internet... and Steve Meisner, whose
contribution to the album's success vastly exceeded the only payment he
ever took for his vocal work, which was a roll of bubble wrap to give
to one of his grandkids.
And
of course, thank YOU, the listeners of my music, for your patronage and
continued support. There are a lot of music awards out there, but no
award on earth could ever compare to the compliments you offer, or the
smiles you share, which express how much you enjoy the music I create.
That is the intangible reward of this craft, and its highest honor.
Making music is about making people happy, and if there's one niche of
the music business in which this has proven to be true more than any
other, it's polka music.
Although
the internet is full of music-related forums, this new forum is poised
to stand out from them all. Why? Because it's built on the same
framework, and operates under the same administration, as VI-Control.
VI-Control
was founded in 2004 as a forum for people to discuss using virtual
instruments to create music for film and television. In 2017, the forum
was purchased by L.A.-based music producer and virtual instrument
developer Mike Greene. Under his administration, the forum has swelled
to over 40,000 members, and it boasts some of the movie and television
industry's most prominent composers as members.
What
makes VI-Control so unique is the integrity of the membership. There
aren't many places where hobbyist composers and Academy award-winning
composers can comfortably and freely exchange information and opinions,
but Mike and his team work to keep the riffraff associated with other
internet forums at bay, resulting in a professional yet casual
environment.
Although
VI-Control is welcoming to all types of musicians, it was designed
specifically for composers in the movie, TV, and video game business,
so it skews heavily toward orchestral music. The discussion of a
virtual accordion library, for example, can get instantly buried under
a multi-page discussion of John William's brass sound from Jurassic Park.
For
several years, Greene, along with other forum members including yours
truly, entertained the idea and hashed out the concept of another forum
like VI-Control — one of comparable integrity, but for everyone else
outside the orchestral virtual instrument and film composing realm. It
would be designed as a home for producers, songwriters, recording
engineers, and musicians of all levels and all genres. Last year,
Greene and his team went to work, and early in 2025, Songwriterandproducer.net
(also shortened to songprod.net) was launched.
It's
brand new, so the membership is just starting to grow. Over time as
pop, rock, country, R&B, jazz, EDM, and polka artists, producers,
and songwriters set up camp, they'll influence its growth as the forum
will undoubtedly adapt to encompass the topics that are most important
to them.
I
encourage all of my musician friends and colleagues to join this forum!
Whether you're a Grammy-nominated producer with industry wisdom to
dispense, or a hobbyist accordion player needing help with programming
your MIDI foot controller, your membership on the new forum will be
welcome, appreciated, and rewarding.
This
is also a rare opportunity to become a pioneer member of a new internet
forum. That doesn't happen every day. Sign up, maybe post a message
introducing yourself, and then sit back and enjoy watching the forum
grow. And look for "Polkasound." That's me!
Another Dash Cam
Video February 8, 2025
If
you lost a black, metal DVD organizer that fell off your car while
traveling
north on Highway A toward Fox Lake, uh... I found it.
Fortunately
I didn't
see any fluid leaks after slamming into it and dragging it along, and
the car made it back
home,
but something triggered the engine light to come on after a while, and
my bumper will need to be repaired and repainted. I had planned to
attend the Illinois Polkafest today, but I'll need to get my car
inspected for mechanical damage before I drive it too far.